I dont have to

I have said that line so many times in the past month since the Lord told me not to go to school. I believe it because I trust that He will always have a bigger plan that I could ever imagine. Even when it’s kind of scary I know He is forever holding my hand.

It is hard to explain that idea to people that think logistically. All our lives it is engrained in our brains that we have to have a plan, we have know what is next, and we have to have every little thing all figured out.

I didn’t have a plan, I didn’t know what was next, and I didn’t have anything figured out.

Molly and I were still getting signs and confirmation about starting a woman’s ministry but I began hearing God say not yet. Not yet, Carly, I have so much more to show you and teach you in preparation for what’s to come.

Now He is teaching me to wait upon Him.

He told me not to go to school but no other details. So I waited. Next, He told me that what next was going to be a season of preparation. A few weeks later, He said it wasn’t time for me to be home, but He didn’t tell me where He wanted me. So I waited some more.

Then one day I was just chilling out with Jesus and He said “Email Mr. Rodger” Mr. Rodger is the principle at the school we worked at in Honduras. It didn’t really make any sense to me. It’s not exactly what I had in mind. I would not have ever thought of going back there on my own but God did and that’s where He wants me next. So this July, just two months after coming, I’ll be on my way back to Tegucigalpa, Honduras. I know it’s soon and sometimes I get nervous but I know God will provide me with everything I need.

God is still showing Molly and I signs for a woman’s ministry as well.

Last week, while Molly was at a church service in Columbus, God gave the guy speaking 4 visions to share. The last person he pointed to was Molly. He said, “God wants to tell you that you are an artist, you’re very artistic and I see you painting pictures that are bigger than yourself. Also, I see you in a woman’s ministry, teaching woman almost like Beth Moore. I see you teaching a bible study to these women. And the beautiful thing is that you accept people right where they are.”

That night God gave visions for 4 out of more than 60 people. Molly was the fourth person. She had never even met the guy! Wow, how cool is that! My God is so awesome and bigger than we will ever know.

So yeah, God may be teaching me patience but at the same time I’m not waiting for anything, I’m in the middle of His process, and He is preparing me with every step.

I don’t know how any of this is going to play out but what would the fun in that be? I don’t have to know anything else because I know that He will fill me when I’m ready.

For the rest of my life, I’ll never have to make a plan, I’ll never know exactly what is next, and I’ll never have to try and figure anything out.

Loving Jesus is so exciting!! I don’t have to do anything but love Him and listen to Him.

It’s like Christmas every day. I know I have the gifts, I just don’t know what exactly is inside!

Loyalty School

We got to help Cassie build her girls home, I will be living here!

Cassie and Genesis

loveeee these girls!! Dania, Fanny, and Amalia all live on the property where i will be living